Simply put, life is amazing. It is the sum of all things that makes us happy, makes us sad, lifts us up in our highest moments, and throws us down in lowest. Life is dynamic. Ever-changing in what it presents us as our daily challenges and rewards.
Yet life can sometimes appear to push too hard. It can take everything that a person should be happy for and turn it into guilt and fear for no apparent reason. Life can become a deep hole of never-ending darkness that seems inescapable. When all our surroundings seem to just be a blur, as if nothing is ever really there or ever really matters. When a feeling of detachment is only punctuated by the thought that an end is all there is to look forward to.
This is depression. This is a condition that so many people deal with on a daily basis and so many of their family and friends sometimes never know occurs. Depression is quite possibly the worst feelings I could ever imagine anyone having to undergo. But it’s more than that. It’s more than just a feeling. It’s an inability to cope with the world around you and understand how or what reality actually is. In depression, a person’s mind is distorted and so much of their thoughts are devoted to those dejected, lonesome feelings.
What’s worse is when a person has dealt with these feelings for too long. Their body mentally and physically cannot handle the stress of their situations any longer. This is when depression becomes dangerous. When a person thinks that the only way to end all the pain and suffering is to stop living. Some may ask “why would someone ever get to this point and think that it could solve everything? How could someone be so selfish and focused only on their own wants and desires to actually go through with that? Wouldn’t they realize what they would be doing to their friends and family?” Yes. Yes they would.
And that’s the kicker. That last question torments the mind over and over and over again, yet still, somehow, the warped brain still pushes that person to the edge. That’s why it’s thought of as a solution. That’s why they appear to make a decision that no normally-thinking person would make.
It is the saddest to hear the other side of this decision. To read a news article about a famous person who touched so many lives that they never even met. To receive an email about a classmate who couldn’t deal with it anymore after college. It’s sad not only because of the obvious outcome, but it’s sad because maybe they could have been helped. Maybe they could’ve had a friend or co-worker that they could’ve seen the light in and used to pull themselves out of the abyss. A simple “hello, how are you today?” or a night out with friends. Small things shine big in dark moments. A friend writing a note saying “I hope you read this and smile :)” could drastically change how a day, a week, or even and entire month turns out for a person.
I’ve been there. I’ve lived that life. I suffered through years of it. There are thoughts and memories that I hope to someday forget completely. Every once in a while I still think back to then. But I’m here now, a much happier and healthier man. Living each day like the true gift that it is and enjoying all the simple things in life is such an amazing feeling. Waking up happy every day and knowing that I’ve got an incredible life to live is what it should be all about.
But this only happened because of the help of people. Few knew, most didn’t. But even though most didn’t know what I was going through, they could still bring a smile to my face every once in a while. Baking a cake, eating dinner, cards of encouragement, having meaningful and happy conversations are all just small, simple examples of the incredible amount done for me by others.
I write this to say a simple line: help others. Yes, while those suffering from depression should seek help and know when they need to, they often don’t. I never did. It sometimes doesn’t seem logical to that person to go ask for help because either they don’t realize it or they feel guilty for being depressed. They feel ashamed and that others will look down upon them. But you can make a difference in their lives.
You can make all the difference. Everyone is fighting their own battle in life. Being encouraging and kind to others helps them get through their days. And being kind in turn makes you feel good for helping out. If you know of someone who is suffering from depression or may appear to be, just help. Tell them a funny joke when you pass them in a hallway. Say hi and ask them how their day is going. Take them out for a drink or dinner. Whatever small thing you feel like you can give a few minutes of your day for could mean the world to someone and help change their lives forever.